Saturday, May 30, 2009
Had a nice chat with Ps Cat today. :) Thanks for hearing me out. It spoke volume, :)

Hmm, anyway, today's combined worship session was really good. Basically I felt refreshed after that. Sometimes it can be super tiring sunday after sunday, if I'm not playing, I'm in ekids. If I'm not in Ekids, I'm playing on stage. It's never a really free sunday where I can actually stand as a congregation and yeah, basically stand there and worship God. And today was it. I felt so recharged after that. Like a battery which was dead, but now alive. LOL. Ready to give energy to some dead things. :) HAHA. Lame analogy.

Then after which, Max and I sat in aunty CY's car to go to Sizzlers for dinner with mom, dad, bec and shu ai. :) It was awe-some. HAHA. Talked and joked around, laughed about alot of things. LOL. And I ate ALOT. Lol. Gosh. I feel like a pig.

Alas, the holidays are here. :) HAHA. I can't wait. WOOHOO! Though I keep thinking that theres school on monday xD Tsk. *snap out of it sam* !

Stop thinking about how others will think of you and just do it. :)

"If you have raced with men on foot
and they have worn you out,
how can you compete with horses?
If you stumble in safe country,
how will you manage in the thickets by the Jordan?"
Jeremiah 12:5

Hmm, today was just great, *sacarstic tone*.

Well, as clar always says, "Tomorrow will be a better day!"

Anyway, on a lighter note, Carecell today was awesome. :) Ps Cat joined, and then it was about Remembering to forget. :) Spoke alot to me. As we grow older forgiving isn't easy anymore. Let alone forgetting.

I'm blogging in sections vs sections now. I can't get my thoughts organised, yet. I just pray that everything will be okay soon. And that I'll learn how to get my thoughts together and not get intimidated/scared soon. VERY soon. RAWR.

Anw, I'm playing bass this week. Today I was totally out. DAMN. But after that I got into the mood and everything was A-OKAY. :) Thank God.

Tomorrow we have a combined worship thinggy in church at 2.30pm. :) I'm so excited for it. I dont know why.

You are my shield, My strength,
My portion, Deliverer.
My shelter, strong tower,
My very present help in time of need.

Thursday, May 28, 2009
Was caught up reading my past conversations on MSN with certain people and got carried away.........

Makes me think back how fun everyone was then comparing to now. Part of me really want to re-live those times where we were all so happy y'know. But the other part of me tells me that nothing lasts forever and things change, people change. And now, Im glad to have grown closer to other people. Though it still makes me sad when I think of how drifted some of us have become.

I guess God has His perfect timing for change. And I am excited. A bit nervous, but excited for the change and all. :)

School has changes too, My break time is 2 hours now. :) WOOHOO!

And tomorrow's my last day of school before 2 weeks of holiday. But next week's a busy week, going to church more than ever cuz I have to do my camp stuff and settle all of it. :D

Youth camp is in a week's time ! :D

"God, what's happening??"

Monday, May 25, 2009
Sunday I taught in Ekids jr. With char. So its just Char and I. MUAHAHA. Had so much fun.. And suddenly Shu ai walked in saying, "I'll bring Emma here!" :D I got so excited. HAHAHA. Then talked and played with Emma, let her do craft. :)

Soon went down to eat breakfast at e cafe and yeah. Then attended service for 1030. Ps Glen was preaching on "WHo are you turning to?" OR SMTH LIke that. HAHA. :D Heh, then after service, when the youths were eating, I ate with my parents. Didnt wanna go with Rae and bec they all because I was afraid to be late for the class in the afternoon. After eating, i brought Emma to the slides and then aunty sheryll even took a pic of me and Emma ! :D Its like those type, "take a pic, it'll last longer" ! HAHAHA! Thanks! HAHA.

The class we had was on Quiet time. :) It was awesome. We also got to spend 10 mins as quiet time. :D

Okay. So school today was really confusing and stressful. But I'm fine. Hahaha, after a long day in school, i come home and lie down on the bed. After finishing the chords of Sashi's worship set. So Im left with just the chords for 6 more worship sets by this week. Sounds like alot uh. Yeah, it IS! Oh God, I made it so complicated, Help me I pray.

Tomorrow will be a better day!

Wednesday will be an even better day!

Hmm, but not thursday. Biochemistry! GOodness. HAHA..

People say we year 2s who have 4 day week dont skip school in RP because................
Monday - We just had a long weekend break (sat - sunday)
Tuesday - The next day is a holiday.
Wednesday - Off day.
Thursday - We just came back from a holiday.
Friday - We've got a long holiday coming up (weekends) !

LOL. Good one eh?

Saturday, May 23, 2009
Today was awesomely awesome! I thank God for the opportunity to play drums today. Haha. Althought I had no confidence in the begninning once again, but God has other plans I guess. :) heh it was REALLY fun! :) Im so glad I agreed to play. Heh.

It was awesome! Heh, not that Im very good at it, but yeah. Thank God!

Anw, played with Emma today, she's so ADORABLE. And finally saw Aunty sheryll. Hahaha! :D Yay. LOL. :)

Heh.

Thursday, May 21, 2009
Sam chooses to step up and decides to trust God to bring her through.

:)



Wednesday, May 20, 2009
"you will not be able to say something as deep or as profound as yong ern
or be gangsta style like miah
or corny lame as jane
or brutally honest as me
but you'll be sam koh and God will put words in your mouth that will speak into the hearts of people
so stop freaking out and just listen for His voice man!" thanks franky!

I will be that sam koh You made me. :) In fact, I'll stop trying to compare. Comparing really makes me feel intimidated. Comparing makes me feel so much smaller than I really am.

Hmm, today I had an awesome lunch with Ps Cat today. :) It was really awesome. Heh. Talked alot, and joked alot. =) hehh! I had honestly so much fun.

Followed by music class. It was awe-some. HAHA! :) Aunty CY said that if i continue practicing, I'll def pass, its how much I want to score. Oh God, dont let me stop practicing my piano. I dont wanna fail my grade 8. So anyway, next week's a mock exam for me. Hope I pass at least *cross fingers*.

I must stop belittling myself. Must MUST MUST............... Because, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
God it may be hard, as i look at things now, everything might be really screwed up.... But God, all my gut feelings tell me that You are still watching over me. And you'll not want me to give up, do You?

Monday, May 18, 2009
Beautiful baby picture. HAH. :) So nice! A child's innocence. Hmm, This reminds me, I saw a video of ekids singing a song, "You are my strength when I am weak" and WOW. :) Touched my heart so much! Its really awesome hearing the kids sing.

:) And yeah, today school I had lab today. Chem and lab = complicated equations and mixture. But cuz I was in the fun group, and even though faci kept scolding us, LOL I had my share of fun! :) It was so enjoyable.

Tomorrow's lab for Microbiology. Gosh. I hope its something fun. ANd interesting. If not itll be so boring. :( And I dont even know what class I'm in.

I'm getting so stressed out for the camp stuff, but i've already done most of it, thank GOD. Hmm, and my school work's being an ass to me. Followed by my piano exam in September. HAHA. I hope I dont stress aunty CY out. lol. :P

So anyway, I can't wait for Wednesday once again, and Friday, and Sat, and Sunday. :))

Voice of truth says "Do not be afraid".

Help me to learn faster........................
iTs super hard. as much as I really want to......... Oh GOD...!

Friendship
Thursday, May 14, 2009

Hmm, this few days, alot has happened, good and bad. :) For me, everything's been awesome, I guess. Hehh.

Heard a few stuffs about friendship things, which got me thinking. Friendship is such a strong relationship, it could break you, and at the same time, mould you. Tsk. For me, some friendships are certainly stressful to handle, some are fun, some are just full of laughter, while some are just annoying, some needs EXTRA care. While some gives me extra love, encouragement that I need. But some needs working on. TO maintain. Overall, to me, ALL of my friendships need maintaining, but God, it's just so hard. SO so SO hard............ I've seen how some friendships get ruined, I've seen for myself how keeping things inside for SOOOO long NEARLY ruin friendships. I've seen. I've felt, and I know.

But at the same time, I'm really thankful for the experiences I've been through. Sad/pain/heartbreaking/happy/enjoyable/fun and all, I thank God for it all. Friendship really plays a HUGE part in everyone of our lives. Including mine. "A man isn't made to be an island." quoted from aunty sheryll. :) Speaks loads. Oh well. :)

B just quarrelled with the best friend. And shes really affected by it. I pray she'll be okay. Friends are part and parcel of life.................. :)

I treasure all my friends, alot. I really do. I may not look/act like I do, but I really do. Especially to those I talk the most to, and are closer in the sense, you who know most things about me, I treasure all of you so much..... sO SO SO much.............! LOL.

HAHAHA. I feel so SIAN now. Just cause of that long post. First time in ages since I last wrote a long post and a meaningful post. :) Oh well.

Let's get started. Music class was quite depressing, though I know aunty CY was being kind. Argh, fingers, WORK!!!!

Though I feel really accomplished today, I practiced my piano for about half an hour. Despite me feeling so sweaty, tired and hot.

And y'know, youth camp stuff is STARTING to get quite stressful, Oh GOD, i need YOUURRRRRRRRR helpppppppppppppp! :D I can do it.

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.... "
Phillipians 4:13

But the voice of truth,
Tells me a different story.
The voice of truth,
Says, "Do not be afraid."

Tuesday, May 12, 2009
我决定了要用华文写这个blog post. 今天的课是很难了解，我真的要上网查很多东西喔。啊! 我刚记得星期五要跟我的 carecell group 出去吃晚餐，and maybe 吃冰淇凌。

我现在才觉得自己的华文一点也不错。哈哈！而且我很proud of 我的华文。刚才我拿了哥哥的guitar 来玩。 明天我有音乐课。(Music class). AH. whatever man, My chinese is good, and I'm proud of it. :P How bout that! :P

Hmm, well, anyway. I picked up my bro's guitar, and practiced my bass stuff. Not that I'm any good at it, but at least the effort's there. Its so hard, cuz I dont know the notes exactly, I dont even know the notes AFTER the 3rd string. So it's really hard for me to learn cool riffs and all, but I am trying. On my own. Half the time, the riffs my bro taught me, I dont even know the notes, I just memorise it and the position. Oh GOD, help me.

Hahaha, Anyway, tomorrow I've got music class. And I'm really excited. I guess. HAHA. :) YAY!
Clar and I hooked our pinkys ONLINE. LOL. Not to ever forget each other when we get our boyfriends. HAHa! :)

反悔的人，脸上生痤疮。


Sunday, May 10, 2009
Church was fun today. Taught ekids Jr at the 8am service. Heh, the kids jumped and all, it was so nice seeing them jump. :)

Hmm, then helped with the registration bit, with elisha and jane (in the 1030 service), then attended service. Heh, sermon was alright too. Oh it's mother's day today. HEH.. :)

Happy mother's day ! :D

OH, today Sabrina came ! :) I miss her SOOOOOOOOOOOO much. And just last night I was telling max that I missed Sabrina, and today, she came ! I was super happy :) HEHHHH!

Oh well, hmm, tomorrow's another day of school :( Sian, a new week. And just realised my june hols is in another 2 weeks. -.-" SO FAST. HAHA. Goodness. Time flies. Really.

One love beyond the heavens,
And deeper than the sea.

Thanks for coming to say hi! :) HAH you rock.

Saturday, May 09, 2009
Ive got to do my PP already. Haha, its personal profiling i think. That's the name. :) I choose to do on Yamaha Music thing, BUT its so tough to find info on that actually. Oh well.

Hmm, Anyway, yesterday's youth service was awesome. =) I loved it. I especially loved worship. God was there, and I know that. :D Well, I managed to play alright, to me that is, I gave my best.

Hmm, Carecell group was really tiny today. I guess less stress for clarisa. HAHA. But oh well, I had fun in cell group too. Ps Wil joined, and yeah. It was really fun. :) Lots of laughter and all. Heh.

So I spent today slacking. THe whole of today. LOL. Hmm, watched tv. Literally. I woke up, ate, and napped in the afternoon, and watched tv. 0.0 Then went out for dinner with grandparents and parents. Heh.

Its not how good you can play. Its about whether or not you can lead the people into worship.

Friday, May 08, 2009
I should really start blogging again. Heh, it seemed like ages since my last blog post. Which was only last week. Heh. So far I'm back in Singapore. Yes, I'm back. Goodness. Hahaha.

So anyway, had music class on Wednesday. It was awesome. Firstly I didnt have school on Wed, THEN I had music class, which was double the awesomeness. LOL! =) Thank God. Heh.

But anyway, yesterday had practice. Youth practice I mean. Haha, it was literally us youths only..... Well, erm, except for Max that is. HAHA. But he said he felt 10 years younger, SO I guess that counts. LOL. It was so... FUN.... LITERALLY youth. LOL. We were all between 16/17 - 20 years old. Except for Max though. HAHA. :) Nice ! =) Anyway, thank God for His help during prac! Everything turned out fine. :) THank God. Heh, all of us were able to figure out what and when to play. :D To me it was alright. Heh! =)

Hmm, tonight's youth. Oh wait, today in class, I dissected a chicken! :) Chicken Wing I mean. :D Super duper fun. Wore my cool labcoat. The reason why I'm so excited over my labcoat is that I just bought it yesterday and so Im really happy I got it. I'll take a picture and show you guys soon. HAHA. Havent got the time to take a picture yet. I'll take it soon. Heh! :) I'm just really happy that I've got my labcoat.

Rejoice with me!

Things in the past,
Things yet unseen,
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true.
All of my hopes,
All of my plans,
My heart and my hands are lifted to You.....