Sunday, March 30, 2008
Yesterday at BBQ was fun fun fun! But rae and i decided to be antisocials since, i wasnt feeling that fine yesterday, so might as well go antisocial a bit. Then we went walk walk with Sash bro. HAHAHAHA! It was HILARIOUS. Literally. HAHA. I was enjoying myself at that point. Lol. Hmm, then i went to disturb zq bro. As much as he disturbs me and is so violent, haha, he also made me laugh. Hahaha. Hmm.

That was about the fun part in the BBq. lol. Hmm, THen I screwed up a hell lot on the way back. =( Then, came back and IMMEDIATELY told zq. How lousy I felt, How much I screwed up. But, apologised and all.......? Inside Felt really lousy.

Today woke up and went into the car and .... ! Haha, even in church also while sitting alone. HEHE...! Oops. Emo.. REALLY emo in the morning. Haha, like really really. Hahah. To be honest, I felt I couldnt forgive myself at all. YES THAT SERIOUS. hahaha. Hmm, but now chilled already la. =) Thank God. lol.

"Keep on smiling." =)

Saturday, March 29, 2008
Thought of the day: What's wrong?

Ytd's conversation on MSN with Sash bro, this time it was so real. I didnt KNOW where to start, leading to me not really talking. I wanted to talk. I REALLY wanted to. I mean, OF COS i wanted to. Ah whatever, this aint the first time I dont know what to say anyways. ARGH. I know, I know, zq says DONT GIVE UP on anything.

Its just so tough.

So, I guess for now its try and try. Try and try, Dont give up, and continue. I dont know whats up with me. bUT OH well.........

Thanks for tt sms when you sent it ytd. Although it was a simple "How are you?" it meant ALOT to me . Just when I felt no one cared and all, you smsed me. And when I asked why? that simple... "Cos very long never talk to you ma" really really made me glad. Thanks.

Thursday, March 27, 2008
Thought of the day: A lil Emptiness makes a whole lot of difference.

Today was rather.. COOL? lol. Stayed home the whole day and accompanied Misty. Misty was so cute. He was asleep the WHOLE day. And I talked to him. He listens and keeps it all to himself. He's a friend, that when Im alone, he understands. He just listens and meows. I love him!

Hmm, once again, Im always feeling like that. Happy.. ? Whatever. I dont care. LOL !!!!!!! Hmms, on a brighter and more excited note, Ive got Chiou Yun's music class tmr. YAY. Lessons with her is SOOO fun la. I cant wait. I cant wait. CANT wait. LOL LALALA!!!!!!!!! =)

Then Radi8 after that.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Thought of the day: Angel & Mortal game is so fun..... YET.............

Yet... frustrating? HAHAHA! I dont know what to get for my mortal. What should i do ?? Shirt? Card? Note? SHOES? (haha definately NOT) Chocs? Sweets? ....... That's it, going shopping tmr for it. Anyway got vouchers. HAHAHA! =)

Hmm, TOday was a really really really fun day, LONG time since I last had so much fun with church peeps. Other than the days shu ai stayed over, BUT... This is going out... So different. This is a first in a LONG time. I enjoyed myself.

The emptiness...

Monday, March 24, 2008
Misty is a HE, but his name will still be Misty. Cuz he'll not be used to his name if i change it. Well, Misty's soo CUTE. And it's so obvious that he loves me back. He doesnt runaway when he sees me, instead, he comes and rubs his body against my legs. How adorable. =) He's one which cheers me up ALL DAY LONG...............

Today was an ULTRA bored day. I dont know why, but it seems like its really so boring. So..... i, haha I went to get misty up and he accompanied me the whole day. Sleeping and all. OH my word...... =)

Well, i so feel like sleeping now. But Im waiting for my show to start at 5.30pm lol! Hmm.. OH wells........ =) Ive been thinking ........................................................ LOL...

I rock.

Saturday, March 22, 2008
It HAD to rain today... =(

Lay was so expecting and hoping it'll be sunshine and all today.. Oh wells. ITs SOKAY! =)

Last night stayed over at Lisa's house. Lol it was fun. Like REALLY fun! HAHA. Hmm, prata was goooddd! Yup. Then in e morning, we all finally woke up at 9 plus to about 10am? Then called bec and she came over to Lisa's house. Then we had lunch and went to Pasir ris. OH MY WORD. The friggin bus ride was sooo long can! The bus going there, aircon didnt work. Sucks. The worst part was, we sat right behind, which made it ultra bad already.... Lisa and I sat in the opposite direction from where the bus was moving, so we could face Lay and Bec. Soon, it was so bad (felt real lousy mann!).... that I had to close my eyes the whole way, and guess what, I dozed off, tgt with Lisa. HAHA! Oh wells. Tired mann!

Reached Escape finally, sat the first ride, and in e end it rained. 0.0 And we made it to the haunted house, 2 times... Before the rain got really heavy, and we just stoned. 0.0 WOW way to go with the 10 bucks. HAHA!

Hmm, Bus back to Bishan, was really. REALLY............. terrible tooo. But a TAD better than bus going there. HAH. Cuz the aircon in this bus worked, plus it was DAMN cold. HAHA.. SO much for complaining about the heat. Also felt lousy and terrible... Slept also. Now Im dead tired. Im probably gonna crash already. Tmr's an early day.

HAHA, today was an ULTRA fun day lo!!!!!!!! THANK GOD for todayyy! =) Despite the rain, despite the long bus rides which made me feel really sick, despite having to walk so much.... despite wasting my 10 bucks.... It was all worthwhile. =)

Friday, March 21, 2008
Thought of the day: No mood to care.

Everytime I BEGIN to care for ANYTHING... be it my life, or friends, or anything...., SOMETHING has to happen. Hmm I just got 1 thing to say, Ive done what I should already...?

But, God says to care for everyone. So I will. At least try.

Hmm, Last night had a talk with Amy online. Yeap, first time it happened. First time I actually talked with Amy about serious stuff like that.... And it was so........ cool? Cool that the verse she told me yesterday to read and keep close to my heart, was brought up today in church. Matthew 7:21-23... Yeap.

Today, Good friday. Watched Passion of Christ video in church for a while. Its really cool to know someone actually died for me.... ! Like.. OUT OF LOVE...... Oh my word, this is so much better than Valentine's Day. =)

Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Thought of the day: Bye bye kittens!

Momma cat took em home yesterday. Just when I was getting my hopes up in being able to keep them, they all left. Thanks momma kitten. *in a real sacarstic tone*..............

Hmm.. Its really no good for me to be staying home all e time. So this wise crack *ME*.... Went to make different appointments with different people ALL ON E SAME DAY ---- TODAY. 0.0 Hahaha. That's it, after 12.30, Im outta e house till at night.

12.30pm - Shu ai lunch.
2pm - Mages, Nina and Baron.
and Dinner - Lisa and Lay. Oh my word, I miss them SOOO............................

Hmm.. Yeaps. So lame HUh!

Sunday, March 16, 2008
Hi Im back blogging. Haha! Hmm....

Church was alright.

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hMM, 5pm was alright. =) Played piano. Realised how nice i played *winks* ! HAHAHA! BHB a bit wont kill me la right...? Hehehe! Hmm.. The 5 kittens I told you about, are all gone today. Mom cat must've came and took them away. hehe! Hmm.. Im soooo BORED LAAAAA! Went to Purvis (dunno how to spell) to have Chicken Rice. LOL. Hmm, then went to have desert at seah street....? (dunno where). HAHA. Then came back to church... HAHA..

Tmr's another day for me... =)
Damn short post today..... Oh well, nth interesting happened.... HEHE..

Saturday, March 15, 2008
News in the house.... 5 Kittens borned. 0.0

Hallelujah. Misty can be the Mom. HAHAA! But she's WAYYY too young to be a mom. HAHA anyway, doubt we're gonna keep'em. Mom's going ballastic....! OH my word.. How cute can kittens be.. They cant even walk yet. =)

Hmm. TOday went for Gloria's wedding. Had lunch there and sat with franky and Rae. HAHA! :D we (sarah, rae and i) were VERY noisy. Haha! But it was really fun fun fun! Hmm.. Yeap lor.. Tonight meeting rae and sarah with bec for Dinner. Sakae. :D

Im hungryyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!! again..
damn............
This is soooo unhealthy.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Thought hard about the conversation my bro Sash and I had for 2 nights on msn........... And it all made sense. Maybe it really is time......... Oh well...

Hmm, outta this 2 nights, he left this qn with me.... "Who is this God to you?" And it's true. Many a times we all say, (ESP for me...) "God is my everything, I trust YOU..."or "God is my GOD.. mY father.." Or something, But when we have setbacks, troubles, Who is God? 0.0 When we feel we are lousy, we forget that we have a great and BIG God who said in His word tt we are created in His image. We have a Big God who dont break His word. Who is and will be there for us when we call on His name, who will be with us thru it ALL....... And right now, I am also learning to trust in Him.......... 0.0

Not learning very well, BUT.... OH WELL......................

I guess that whatever he said to me really really got to me, and it was really fruitful, or i wouldnt even bother blogging it down. =( Oh well... I shldn't even have had that conversation with him at all. Thanks bro.... =)

Moving on,
Many qns he posed to me on the 2 nights, which REALLY got me thinking. Honestly. MANY of which I couldnt ans at all. But now, I guess its slowly coming...... thinking hard......... For one, I do know that I could start by STOP... totally STOP saying I DONT KNOW.............. For a start.....

Anyway, On a lighter note...... 3 kids... with their... PURE INNOCENCE, really REALLY made my day. =)







Sunday, March 09, 2008
Lil Voice in my head: You can do it... Just rise up!
Me: ..... idk.... me................?

Oh wells. Hmm, It all started with a..... "When can i step down bro?" All the way to a.... "STOP looking at YOUR limitations.." and a.... "NO ONE is SELF SUFFICIENT.." Talk about words that can really hit hard.................. -.-

Really made me think. All this while Ive been thinking about MY inefficient drumming and all, How much i compare myself with others and all, ESP in ministry......... Then today it hit me hard (PS i meant the words).... "STOP looking at YOUR limitations..." 0.0 How clear can it be?

That's it. Enough already. Rising up.......................?
0.0

Poo. I dont know. I wish I could know for certain. But I dont know. Why? Why is it so hard for me to make a decision?

Lets just put it this way. I got convicted. How many times more before I learn?

Friday, March 07, 2008
15 more mins till the next day. Gotta rush this post. Dun wna blog on the next day. Hahaha!

Radi8 was alright. Played keys for Sab. Had fun la. Really. BUT.............................. Oh well.. Hehehe!!!!!! Shant mention. Okay..... Lame...!!!!!

I had my first lesson with Chui yuen (dno how to spell). Yeah. It was GREAT. I cant describe it. But, It was really a GREAT change of environment. Oh well. Hahaha. Looks like really gotta prac piano one... Cuz..... MOM AND HER E MAIL EACH OTHER..................... Wth. -.- Hahaha. But yeah. Enjoyed myself. Thank God.....!!!!!!!!!

Hmm.. Yeah. Back to Should I or should i not?????????????????????? -.- Damn it.

Wednesday, March 05, 2008
Thought of the Day: Stayover with the right people can be really fun.

Shu ai and I totally had fun last night. OOh well.... =) Hmm. Yea. Doing stupid stuff and watching Saw together. Oh my word. Cool Huh??? *Winks*!

Okay. Back to NOW stuff. Hmm.. Went to church for the Carecell meeting thinggy. Free loaded the dinner la. Actually. Hahaha. Extraaaa! Oh wellll....

Hmm, As my msn name says.... "Should I? Or Should I not?" Sighs. Complicated issue. I guess its a choice Ive gotta make, even though deep down I alr know the ans. OOh wells. I need help. Hahaha! Alr asked some opinion. But, Idk la! Oh well. Tough choice..... Im making it so complicated. Sigh...

Enough craps. Lemme think of what to say for once..... Well... Have to read John by the end of March. Tough luck. But, I CAN DO IT! =) HAHAHA!!!!!!!!! Oh okay. Stop here then.... =)

Monday, March 03, 2008
Figured I should start blogging. Hahaha. Cuz after so long, I realised I've been neglecting this blog. Dont know why. It seems as though Im so busy, but, Im not. So far Ive just been watching House all the way. Perhaps House really isnt the best show for me at this point of time, BUT...... Its helping me realise some stuff...... Oh well..

Hmm.. Im stuck. Ive been thinking of how to carry on this post..... But to no avail. Oh my word.... Gimme ideas please! Haha. This is so exciting. I am going to the zoo next tuesday. Tomorrow Shu ai's coming over to chill i think. Lol. OOh boy...!

Hmm, We played/ARE playing the Angel and Mortal game in Radi8. I meant MY carecell. My oh My... What to do.. What to do......... HAHA!!!!! *thinks HARD*........

Ok I'll stop here for now......