Tuesday, December 16, 2008
I never knew how painful it'll be when a pet dies. Never. Not even when duchess died did I feel that sad. Not even when Hugo Boss died, I felt so sad. Its Spotty who died man. SPOTTY! The one who'll bark everytime Im there, and will whimper when I don't answer him. :( I remember that I used to go up to him and pet him, hug him when he starts whimpering. I remember how it was when bec and I were younger and we used to go over to my grammie's house, and asked them to let him into the house so we could play doggy with him. Like, we'd be pretending we lived in a HDB or something, and he'd be running around, and yeah. That, I could do with him. :( I remember how bec and I used to pretend that he was our son. Yeap, I know it sounds so wrong now. But, last time, it sounded nice and fun! We used to try to put him in a trolley, just to push him around. And played fetch with him. I remember how happy and accomplished I felt when I taught him how to sit. And when I trained him. I remember how attached I felt to him when I found out he could understand me. I remember how proud I was of him when he used to only come to me, and ONLY me. I remember how I used to go to him when I felt sad, and hug him. And now, I remember how, as we got older, we forgot about him. I remember how he used to cry and whimper out, but instead of doing what we did to him last time, we just ignored him, because we didnt wna dirty our hands. :( I remember how occasionally I'd feel bad, and I'd just go and pet him, from the gate. I wouldnt go in anymore. :( I remember the look on his face. I remember how disappointed he is. Okay okay, He's just a dog. I get it. I also remember the walks we used to bring him. I remember how he'd run and jump on me, but as he got old .................................. He was one heck of a dog.

Well, I guess things like that happen. Im just so sad now. :( I miss him. I miss hugging him. I miss hearing his bark. Now when I go to my grandma's house, all I see is that lil hill like thinggy in the garden, and know that Spotty's in it. No more barking, whimpering....... :( At all. Silence.

Then CRAP happens after it. :(

Oh God.......! Through it all :) I love YOU God!!! :D