Friday, November 30, 2007
Radi8 was great. I played. Forgot to count in when playing Eagle's Wings. Then there was this break at the fast song where i forgot to cut. OOPS? im sorry!

After worship, I felt really discouraged. i didnt play as well as i thought i would, still as i looked at zq's face, he didnt look angry, i was very encouraged by that. but, still, i played so lousy... i dont know what to do. Then, i remembered what Ps Wil told me before service.... "Worship ah!" and yep, that's just what i did.... and yup, i felt better... :D

Then it was group discussion. I felt down again... Not because i was angry or anything, but cuz I just kept thinking about sab leaving. i dont want that day to come. Seriously.... Then, i sat there and yeah. Didnt feel like doing anything at all. agains, my feelings.. then, after that, we discussed where to go for our group outing, guess what, none was free at the beginning, but in the end im not sure how many pple's are going. but yeah. i really hope everyone can make it, it'll be our last with sab. i dont want her to leave.. i really dont... but yeah. selfish much? hmm yes. Sis, that's why i was sad. Yup, that's why. I just kept thinking how i'll feel after she goes and all... agains, my feelings... :( it sucks having to have someone leave..... someone like my group leader.... *sniffles*.... =( err..
Just when i started appreciating u as my group leader, starting to accept u as my group leader, starting to open up to u, being closer to u and all, i get the news that u're leaving.. how cool is that?? *aww*... :(

Then it was ps wil's msg thing for a while... then end time.. my heart was pounding as i tried to stall for time.... but yeah...

i.. forgive u... that's all i can say for now...
for those who know only.. but for those who dont, dont ask. thanks. =D

okay. quite a weird post. but WAHHHHHH... =(