17/10/06 Tuesday
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
HEY! well, yesterday was a DOWN day for me. aiya i doubt anyone cares. hahaha so no point. hmm, toady was slightly better. but the feeling of guilt, hiding stuff, is really pulling my mood down and stressing me out!!! argh. i don't know already la. trust God lor. most probably it'll be MUCH better tmr. reality check: "ARGH no it won't samantha, think about it slowly la.. okay? just think about it. u know everything about what happened. u know it. just THINK about it. is tmr REALLY gonna be better? "

hmm. well, deep down i KNOW that God has already taken away all the bad feelings and EVERYTHING, cause i PRAYED. but why am i still doubting?? tsk tsk. aiya whatever. no one'll know anything. hahaha. hmm.

and u know sth, i guess God's trying to tell jillyn and me sth. i mean, it isn't just a COINCIDENCE that she wrote on her personal msg " Jesus Lover of my soul, Jesus I'll never let you go." right?? i mean, i wrote that song out yesterday!!! and we both are like in the same plight? and i didn't tell her anything about the song. so yeah. but God what WE want is a conformation from YOU. not in a song. but i just wna thank You for showing that song to me!! i LOVE You Jesus. thanks. just wna say THANKS so much!!! &i'll never let You go.

oh ya!! today is COMPETITION (1) .. LOL. for those in radi8 knows. hahaha. yeah. go win a prize:) i wna win too!!! ar..
hmm. okie okie. im like SO SO bored now. crap la.
i think i stink. haha as in stink literally. (smelly)? haha.
yeah. okie i'll stop here.
gotta face up to REALITY now.
God bless.
sam.